Comparing

I can't help it. I have to compare. I was raised like that. Comparing with others. I blame my mom. When I see my friends courses, or what they're taking...I can't help but ask...why am not taking the same classes as them? Why are they taking more aps than me? While I am taking none. I feel..so embarrassed sometimes because I can't match up to their level. This always happens.It happened in middle school and also in elementary school. I feel that even if I work harder than them, they will always be further and reach higher than me.