Sunday, March 9, 2008

LONG UPDATE COMING UP!

I have so many thing to write about, because lately there has been a lot of things on my mind. First I have to start off with a little DBSK fangirling. Besides Cristy I really just keep the fangirling to myself. ^^ Anyways, (darn it I really should've watched the video a long time ago) Love In The Ice LIVE IS FREAKING AWESOME~!This song live is just spectacular. I was watching it on youtube. *dies* DBSK together...I really can't imagine anyone else replacing them,like ever. I will continue to love and support them until the day I die. I was watching the concert clip and I was like captured by their power?. They truly have this hold on you until the performance is over. (T__T Please continuing singing this song until I can actually afford to go to Japan to see you sing this live. ^^)Anyways, their voices especially Yoochun when he did the ahhh~. I had goosebumps all over my skin. Junsu never ceases to disappoint me with his powerful voice. When I listen to it on my Walkman MP3, I can clearly distinguish all of their voices even though they are singing together. They mesh so well!! ^^ (Right now I'm listening to Love In The Ice while typing up my blog. I really wanna go see them live in concert.) Jaejoong's voice is still amazing. But this time Changmin and Yunho voices I really noticed. I mean ALL THE BOYS VOICES STOOD OUT. BUT Changmin's voice is really strong really powerful, I noticed it in Rising Sun also. O.O IF THEY WERE SERENADING IT JUST FOR ME I'D DIE A HAPPY PERSON. I WOULD BE LIKE HEY THERE IS NO MORE OF A REASON FOR ME TO LIVE,^^ hehe. Usually, when I listen to DBSK I only notice Junsu's and Jaejoong's voice but (this is why I love Love in the Ice so much) everybody's voice stood out so clearly. I'm so proud of my dorky boys. <3 And the lyrics (posted earlier) omg the lyrics...you have to read the lyrics to understand everything. It is so beautiful, it make me want to cry. TT__TT But enough about DBSK. I can always fangirl some other time. ^^
I'm so curious if this happens to other people. In school on the 3rd floor everyday, I always see someone familiar. Like I would remember their name and know what class we have in common. But like I would want to wave hi? but I don't see the other person waving hi so I'd just forget about it. Why do they do that though? I mean I recognize them and I'm pretty sure they recognize me; but why do they not wave back? Isn't it suppose to be a friendly gesture? Besides the point, every morning I take the bus. And I see the same exact people everyday. I mean they're all familiar to me but at the same time they are strangers. If we say hi they would think that we're crazy if we don't say hi they think that we're mean? How the heck are we suppose to find the delicate balance between both?
My English teacher recently assigned us our Junior Thesis. T__T so anyways. I was thinking about what my thesis would be and I so suck at these things. And something popped into my mind at like 5:30AM in the morning (does this happen to anyone?). The idea was identity. I read a couple books about it. IE:Ethan Frome, Girls in Pants. And earlier this week I was reading something about Asian Stereotype. I was thinking well do I have an identity? If I did, what was it? I never really thought about these things you know. at home I'm the oldest out of three children. (well, now the second oldest) At school, I don't have an identity, I mean when I think about it do I really? I'm on the girl's fencing team, part of some clubs,part of a society. But other than that I'm not part of anything. I see many people who are confident about themselves. But at school I feel like I'm lost?, forgotten?, invisible. I'm blended into the walls. I know I'm quiet and talk only when the teacher calls on me; I feel invisible sometimes, not sometimes quite alot of times. I have to repeat my idea two or even three times before my idea is heard! I feel that obtaining an identity probably one of the challenges in high school. Probably people in college have trouble obtaining an identity. i feel that without one, a person will probably be lost and confused. ahh~ one of the many problems of high school.

2 comments:

Cristy said...

OMG. The "Ah, ah, ahh~" part of "Love in the Ice" gives me goosebumps too! I get chills every time I listen to the solo and duet parts. I'm getting chills just typing about it! xD Their Japanese ballads are so nice. "Forever Love" is also nice when performed live, but for some reason they never perform the full version. o_O Anyway, Jaejoong and Junsu's duet at the very end of live "Forever Love" perfs is SO GOOD and gives me ultimate chills. Ahhhhh. ♥

AND YES, CHANGMIN IS SEXY WHEN HE SCREAMS IN "RISING SUN"!!! "Noooo~" is my favorite part. xP

I get the waving feeling sometimes, but I'm never sure if they'll wave back so I just don't wave. They probably don't wave back because you're just acquaintances and don't talk on a friendly level despite being in the same class.

Girls in Pants is the most mature book by far. Everyone loses their virginity. :x Haha.. I think your thesis will be a good one if you think about your identity deeply enough. And if you think you have no true identity, then maybe write about why that is. What does a teenager go through when s/he feels identity-less?

Cristy said...

You don't comment back anymore. :( And you need to update your Blogger again!