T.T crying over Taiwan

T.T I miss Taiwan. T.T I miss my grandmother. T.T I miss my cousins. T.T I miss the night markets. T.T I miss the food. T.T I miss everything! T.T My mom called my nana today and I when I heard her voice I started bawling. I don't know all these emotions came out and I was crying and talking at the same time, like I couldn't get enough of her voice. I miss her so much. It happenes everytime she calls...I cry. When I leave Taiwan I cry. That is about the only time when I ever cry. Is when I leave my grandmother, or hear my grandmother's voice. It's unsusal its like my heart has the dropping feeling and like its about too break. It's what I try to avoid. But afterwards when she hangs up its like the feeling stays but this big pressure is lifted off my shoulders. I miss her so much. She raised me. I know my mom did. But she was with me since I was born. When I got my kidney removed. And I was crying nonstop. My grandmother was there the entire time holding me. I miss her. I miss her so much.