Sleep Deprived.

Insomnia...is pissing me off. I can't sleep, I hardly eat...I really have no idea what is happening to me. It's is now 4:35 AM IN THE MORNING where everyone in the Tristate area is asleep. and here I am updating my blog... T.T the problem is that I can't sleep. I've been watching too much dramas lately to sleep. Wednesday I went to sleep at 6 in the morning and slept until 8 am. I ONLY GOT TWO HOURS OF SLEEP!!!! What is wrong with me??
SLEEP COME TO ME!!! SANDMAN WHY AREN'T YOU DOING YOUR WORK!!! I CAN'T SLEEP! ARE YOU SLEEPING ON YOUR JOB?!
I don't know where my sleeping problem lies. I know I've been staying up late watching dramas lately. But I already stopped. Lately my sister has been hogging the computer. >.> So why can't I get my sleeping pattern straight? I am considering sleeping pills at this point. I know I have Insomnia but I didn't think it would get this bad. This is getting out of control. Any Suggestions?

I miss...

I miss Taiwan. I want to go back. to see my grandparents. to see my family. to see ximending. to see Taipei, Bettou,Danshui. I want to see my cousins again. i want to see and shop and smell Taiwan. i loved it there and i want to go back. T.T

My first love.

I was standing in a room. There was water around me. and a runway. I was modeling. >.< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">alot of skin. She was wearing a blue one piece and crying. Then the other people there called me. The two girls there needed me for something. I went to the bathroom with them and they need me to zip them up. So I did, then one of them accidentally sprayed me with water. My suit was showing stuff that wasn't suppose to show. And my friend was outside crying. I went to comfort her. I hugged her saying that It was okay. I was there. Everything was going to be alright. She didn't need to cry anymore. While I was hugging her and stroking her hair, people were staring at us. Mainly me. I realised I was still wet. Then a group of guys were passing by staring at me. There was one person in that group I recognized. He was in a suit. I was still hugging my friend when I went back to the bathroom. Se was still outside the bathroom, just waiting for me. The girls inside were long gone. And I was trying to dry myself up. I went outside to check up on my friend and he was there. The guy in the suit. I was stunned. My heart was beating so fast. I was still pretty aware that I was still wet and showing alot of stuff. He came up to me. Yea, I knew him. He was from my school, the most popular there. He was in my math class, and yea we would talk. But only about math. I never knew. What he said totally surprised me. " I really did love you."
When you used to lay on your friends shoulder I always wished it was me. But I was engaged to her. It was before I met you. I loved you. You know that now." By then I was crying. "No I didn't. I thought you were lying. We're just friends. All the times I was staring at you, you never started back. I didn't know. You didn't tell me." He said "I'm telling you now, I love you. And I always will. But I can't do anything about it because I'm getting married. It was a promise and I can't break it." By then I was sobbing, and he gave me his jacket. He said "I love you" and I shut the door. I was sobbing and I was so overwhelmed and I realised I will never see him again and how I won't be able to talk to him again and then I opened the door. That's when he kissed me. My first kiss, it was surreal. And I was still crying, the kiss was warm it warmed my body, I could still smell is cologne; he smelled nice and then he left. I cried. My heart broke.

T.T keep dreaming...

edit:8:26 PM
screw it. I typed it up like 4 times and everytime it gets to a good part it skips. whatever. just comment me if you want to hear the rest.

to someone.

YOU DON'T NEED TO FUCKING TAKE IT OUT ON EVERYONE I KNOW. IF YOU JUST WANT TO IGNORE ME FINE THEN. JUST IGNORE ME. NOT EVERYONE ELSE I LOVE. MY FRIENDS HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON BETWEEN YOU AND ME. FINE GO AHEAD AND BITCH ABOUT IT BECAUSE IN THE FUCKING END IM GOING TO GET OVER YOU. DON'T FUCKING PISS EVERYONE OFF BECAUSE YOUR FUCKING PISSED AT ME. IGNORE ME IF YOU WANT BUT DON'T FUCKING HURT THE PEOPLE I LOVE.

my weekend [insert adj. here]

I saw POTC 3 on Saturday with my sis and bro. It was awesome. Like awesome as in the perfect end to the trilogy of POTC. Not only was the visual effects awesome, the script, the characters, the comedy at the most randomest times. IT WAS AWESOME!!!! THE TICKETS cost like only $5!!! I'm only seeing my movies from that theatre from now on. It was awesome...and there was like almost no one there. It was like a private screening of POTC 3. And I am watching it again this Wednesday~! YAY!