to whom may it concern

okay i understand when there is a boundary crossed. but honestly i really am pissed off at you and your gf. i understand when you two need some alone time and what not. but when the situation comes to the fact that me and amy and eric ASKED you to come with us to the movies and lunch and you said no. that just really hurt me. and i treat you as a fucking older brother and whatever. and you know what that is going to fucking change. from now on you are nothing to me and you always will be. what the hell was i thinking introducing you to my brother and sister, obviously you weren't good enough for them and uuggh and to think i trusted you with them. and you need to realise that forget camping and forget doing anything together ever again because that is it. i have never felt so betrayed in my whole life and i trusted you alot.

exhausted

im fucking tired of it all. its become fucking ridiculous. i want to fucking move out. i dont fucking care where. the farther the better. im fucking carrying all the responsibilities and work and im fucking tired of it all. i don't fucking want people to give me pity crap. I dont fucking want people to give me bull crap. I don't want fucking people to give me advice on how to deal with it.
all i need is my fucking freedom and i dont even fucking have that. what i need is people to get off my fucking back. im doing what im suppose to do arent i. Im making money and im fucking going to school right. then what the fuck is with these peoples attitudes.
ive already sacrificed my social life, my friends, my LIFE in GENERAL. so GET OFF MY ASS ON IT. i dont even have time for myself anymore. and dont even include my siblings. they aren't the problem. the problem is that I HAVE TO GET AWAY. i dont fucking care how im going i just want to get away from it all.


....okay done ranting. im fine now.