18th Birthday

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bump be gone

so its been about a week since my surgery....its been okay i cant do any rigorous activity hence i cant go to school. and now im just at home really really bored. wtf. entertaining myself by watching and reading about TVXQ. i swear even 550 years from now i will still love TVXQ. i should be better by Wednesday...and maybe i will be able to work...^^ whoo~ theres something for me to do...i cant even lay on my back I CANT SLEEP ON MY BACK!!! i have to lay on my stomach. and now i have to sit up straight ALL THE TIME. it gets annoying after 5 days. i cant slouch anymore. my friend says that's its a good thing since i can correct my position. I AM COMPLETELY COMFORTABLE WITH THIS POSITION!!!slouching is not a bad habit...well...maybe it it...but im trying to correct it.

my parents

my mom and dad the two people who brought me here CANNOT even speak two words to each other before they start arguing. they call me childish. I AM CHILDISH???? WHEN BOTH OF THEM ARE PUTTING ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THEIR STUPID FIGHT!!! what did i do to deserve this. this is one of the reasons why i cant stay here anymore. why should i stay in a place where all there is , is yelling. i cant i really cant i want to go to a college where i can stay at a dorm. i cant stay here. I CANT!

not in the mood to study....

i am so not in the mood to study and its already 12 am >.< darn. i really just dont care anymore... >.< anyways i really should though but procrastinating is just part of life for me. its actually a psychological response really. because you fear that you are going to fail you do less...if that makes any sense. i really just dont want to study...even though id like to...its all mind games. >.<
anyways today i went to the dermatologist to get this bump checked out on my back. ever since my mom saw it shes been freaking out thinking its a beginning stages of cancer shes been bugging and bugging me, the doctor said it was just a cyst nothing particularly dangerous but i do have to do surgery to remove it. so im scheduled for a surgery tomorrow. O.o my mom thinks that its dangerous for me to go alone. but my greatest fear is fainting afterward from the anesthesia. >.< but yea...still...

i want to go to a TVXQ concert. NOW!!!