for the past 4 hours my head feels as if it has been knocked with a hammer a couple of times.
what i need is:
1. 3 hours of some deep intense massage.
2.one day just for my self
3.some actual time to sleep
4.a new bed. my bed is as hard as rock. i feel as if i had slept on the hardwood floor.
5.some new mediation techniques because yoga doesnt cut it anymore
6.and some really fast working painkillers
the good news is I've finally finished my senior thesis and the bad news is that i still have a shitload of other things i have to complete. >.<
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Saturday, December 20, 2008
STUPID SENIORITIS!!!
i swear this senior thesis is going to kill me. if this doesnt kill me then my college essay will. ...arrgh i am so overwhelmed... i never realized that so am so behind with many things in my life. college apps...school...club. oh crud i really have to start keeping a schedule!!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
college essay
chandler i know that you read my blog...so i need you to revise my college essay. =D this also gives me a chance to put up my college essay because i think its really good. sooo yea...chandler as soon as you get this facebook me???
College Essay-
Ever since I was in elementary school, everyday at exactly 6 p.m. my brother comes up to me and states boldly “Lisa, I’m hungry.” Each and every single day my reply is always the same: “Okay, I’ll make you some rice.” As the eldest in a family of three siblings, my job is always and arguably the most difficult. I always have to be the most responsible one of us all. Perhaps it is because I’m the oldest. Whenever my siblings are hungry, I make them food, whenever they are sick, I nurse them to health, it is my job, my duty.
In 2007 it seemed as though my life had taken a turn for the worst, my parents had divorced. It was a tough year for me since my parents were my biggest supporters. However, I wouldn’t let it stop me. I took a couple of college courses at Queens College and volunteered at the local animal shelter. I became treasurer and subsequently secretary of my schools literary magazine and joined my schools girls fencing team.
Although it took quite a bit of time to realize, I finally had the insight of one simple factor: that my life did not end just because of my parents divorce. For a while I tried to do things for myself, just me. I would do anything to move past what had happened, and the feeling of being alone. It was at that moment I realized that I have supporters other than my parents; my brother and sister whom I love dearly and are both dependent on me. I realized than that I wanted both of them to be just successful if not more successful than me. I was happy being depended upon, and happy they looked up to me, as their big sister. My siblings do everything they can to help out, and make life easier for us all, despite everything that had happened.
I helped them both mentally and physically. My role was to be there when our mother was not. I was the one to cook when they were hungry, help them find answers to homework questions, and solve the everyday problems of life. I wanted and in a way needed to make their lives more comfortable. So, like me could feel that they could live without a father. The three of us together give each other the support and care, that every human needs.
The feeling of being depended on, and looked up to is phenomenal. Now that I have come to terms with the events of my life, I have decided that I want to help people other than my siblings. I hope to take the experiences I gain in college and combine them with the experiences I already have, to create something new and fantastic and ultimately unleash it into the world, for the greater good.
College Essay-
Ever since I was in elementary school, everyday at exactly 6 p.m. my brother comes up to me and states boldly “Lisa, I’m hungry.” Each and every single day my reply is always the same: “Okay, I’ll make you some rice.” As the eldest in a family of three siblings, my job is always and arguably the most difficult. I always have to be the most responsible one of us all. Perhaps it is because I’m the oldest. Whenever my siblings are hungry, I make them food, whenever they are sick, I nurse them to health, it is my job, my duty.
In 2007 it seemed as though my life had taken a turn for the worst, my parents had divorced. It was a tough year for me since my parents were my biggest supporters. However, I wouldn’t let it stop me. I took a couple of college courses at Queens College and volunteered at the local animal shelter. I became treasurer and subsequently secretary of my schools literary magazine and joined my schools girls fencing team.
Although it took quite a bit of time to realize, I finally had the insight of one simple factor: that my life did not end just because of my parents divorce. For a while I tried to do things for myself, just me. I would do anything to move past what had happened, and the feeling of being alone. It was at that moment I realized that I have supporters other than my parents; my brother and sister whom I love dearly and are both dependent on me. I realized than that I wanted both of them to be just successful if not more successful than me. I was happy being depended upon, and happy they looked up to me, as their big sister. My siblings do everything they can to help out, and make life easier for us all, despite everything that had happened.
I helped them both mentally and physically. My role was to be there when our mother was not. I was the one to cook when they were hungry, help them find answers to homework questions, and solve the everyday problems of life. I wanted and in a way needed to make their lives more comfortable. So, like me could feel that they could live without a father. The three of us together give each other the support and care, that every human needs.
The feeling of being depended on, and looked up to is phenomenal. Now that I have come to terms with the events of my life, I have decided that I want to help people other than my siblings. I hope to take the experiences I gain in college and combine them with the experiences I already have, to create something new and fantastic and ultimately unleash it into the world, for the greater good.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Mindless Chaos
My mind is in complete chaos right now.....I NEED TO HAVE SOME ORDER IN MY LIFE!!!! I feel like everything in my life is spiraling out of control. i have so much things going on. what i need is time. I NEVER HAVE TIME!!!! I want time to do things and not have to do everything the day before its due. i want time to study.i want time to myself. i don't remember when was the last time i have sat down and watched the asian dramas i love so much.
this year i thought i could handle it....but i feel like i can only handle so much...
this year i thought i could handle it....but i feel like i can only handle so much...
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